Time is Love

For once, I thought we would never be friends and never met again..

But I was wrong. Never had I thought that I could take things so lightly when we met again.

This is not exactly a love story. But yes, I loved him.

I was 18 when we met.

It was a sunny afternoon, a charming guy at the end of the walkway...

Sun shines on his face, a beautiful moment that captured my heart, I could never ever forget even after years. I always thought I'm lucky, couldn't be more thankful for knowing this guy,

despite the tragedy that happened behind. Guess it's somehow fated.

I lost myself. Lots if crazy things I've done.

I just want to be with him at his toughest moment, to be someone he could lean on. I'm his companion, friend, love consultant, just anything but not the significant half.

Throughout the years, we've develop a strange relationship. He knew me, he knew how I felt for him. Things just don't happened. It was a perfect balance. Not much, not too few. As time passed, there goes slight changes in how it felt when we first met and knew each other, but my feeling never changes. It was still that strong. I felt he don't need me that much anymore, yet I'm still there, always, just in case he needed me.

I have been through multiple sleepless nights, tears would just roll down my cheeks when I miss him. I know I should let go, let it be since it just wouldn't work out. Somehow, deep down there's a voice that hold me back, telling me not to give up.

I swear I did tried hard to let go, but it feels like beyond my control. I couldn't stop the feeling grows. I felt like a failure. I'm disappointing everyone who loves me, my friends and family.

Came to think back, I was so silly, I just couldn't say a NO,

But seriously, if I were to given a chance to go through all these again, the same thing I will be doing all over again. 3 years down the road, I've developed the strongest determination, and the immunity against disappointment. Nothing could be worse.

I love to see him smile. I love to see the passion and sparks in his eyes. He's the best of all, at least to me. All I hope is to see the courage in him to pursue his dreams and things he wanted, be it studies or relationship.

At the end of the day, sunshine found his true love. I should be happy. But it felt so difficult to fake a smile. It's the end of my mission. I've done what I can.

I left his life in tears. Yes, he don't need me anymore. I could finally move on...

To conclude, he's someone who changes me so much, someone who taught me love.

I thank you, sunshine.

For once, I thought we would never be friends and never met again..

But I was wrong. Never had I thought that I could take things so lightly when we met again. Outside the convocation hall, there he stood, nicely dressed in stripy formal shirt with a big bunch of lilies in hand. A moment I would die for, but he didn't came for me.

But that doesn't seems to matter anymore. It's the time that heals, sunshine remained a special part in my heart.

There's a saying:

Loving someone its like giving away one part of your heart.

Time heals, but it'll never be the same.